Letting go of Anger

Read: Ephesians 4:25-31

25Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor because we are all members of one body. 26 In your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry 27 and do not give the devil a foothold. 29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouth but only what is helpful for building others up that it may benifit for those who listens. 30 Do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God who sealed you on the day of your redemption. 31Get rid of bitterness, rage and anger, brawling slander along with every form of malice..

   Last Sunday during our church fellowship I was so blessed with the words delivered by our lady pastor Lorna Jane Banggoy Embudo. I mean she always have good points and topics every sermon but last time was so different. I dont know why my spirit react so much. The topic was about dealing with anger.
   Well I say  to my self Im no longer angry and I forgive those who hurt me. But it was like a time bomb hiding underground when trigger will eventually explode. Yes I always explode like a bomb. It caused by hidden resentments. Everytime I become angry I supress it rather than to express.
    I was reminded the story of Incredible Hulk. Edward Nolton play the role of Bruce Banner a scientest working to find a way to use gamma rays radiation to increase healing time in soldiers. Upon subjecting himself to a gamma test, Banner transform into a green skined monster. Every time he gets angry he become a monster. He seek to find cure to himself because he did'nt want to stay in that condition.
   Well its the same with us. Anger can transform us into a person we are not suppose to be. We become a monster when we dont know how to deal with anger in a right way.
   Anger.. Is it a sin?  No its not. Its a healthy emotion. If you are normal person well.. its normal to be angry.
Matthew 21: 13-14 Jesus showed His indignation at there misuse of the temple led him to turn over their tables. Yes.. you and I can have a righteous anger when we feel upset over the mistreatment of others but anger become bad when it is motivated by self interests.
   It is a feeling designed by God for a good purpose but we must be careful in expressing it. Its like a warning light. In verse 26 it says in your anger do not sin and do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. It means unresolve anger is an open invitation to evil. Its like a sharp weapon that can cause harm to anyone anytime.
  And most of all it can hinder relationship with the Lord. It prevents us to become what the Lord wants us to be. Separation to God is the most unsatisfying experience.
   Well its not easy to let go of anger especially major offense. But when I closed my eyes to pray I remember Jesus suffering horrible death on the cross and His voice in pain saying "Father forgive them for they dont know what they are doing." Once again I was broken. But it is Jesus who fixed my wounded heart so I place my trust on Him.

  My Prayers:
   Lord Jesus, Deliver me from the bondage of anger. I dont want to become like this. Forgive me from all my sins. I want to serve you. Draw me back to you and use me according to your purpose. Guide me so that I cannot keep sinning again. All my hope is in you my Lord.. Amen.