Dear God
Since from the beginning you have chosen me. You knit me properly from my mother's womb. you prepared me for an extra ordinary purpose. You trained my hands like a skillful writer and set my mouth to speak your wisdom and instruction.
I have trusted your direction and walk accordingly to your plan. I am totally dependent on you like a baby craving for milk. Your Love and mercy abounds on me.
Yes.. I delight my self in you. I was happy to stay in your presence. I have dine with your table and drink your wine. I have tasted your goodness. I feel deep satisfaction on you.
BUT... I have set my feet on a slippery ground when i started to trust my emotion. I gave in to my earthly desire and forget my calling as a soldier. My flesh is crying out for justice. I fought with my enemies like a man of no wisdom. I found alone in the battlefield, with heavy heart and crushed . I heared my enemies shouting for rejoice at my defeat.
I am alone.. lost in purpose. Like a sheep ready to be slaughtered. I remember your comfort Lord. I want to go back to my father like a prodigal son. I know my Lord will not abandon me to the grave. Will you give me a second chance?
Jesus Bond Servant,
Marilyn
